Barbed on my heart – 2

Drip, drip – red dots On white surface of the sink. Washing away my pain. Spike after spike From my bleeding flesh I’m pulling it out. Barbed of memories, Deep barbed of believes - One by one – away! Tears of sharp pain, I still have flashbacks at nights. I need to pull it out. My opened wound, This bleeding, hurting meat When it will be over? Waiting, pulling out, slowly, one by one…   
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Barbed on my heart

This is funny, but it is so sad… I am happy with him, And you are happy with her. Shouldn’t it take away all pain? Well maybe it should… But was all our past in vain? All these years I believed, That we meant to be together, Through better and through worse, But I was mistaken… I am not healed, even if I am so close… Our relationships were like barbed, They hurt me so much, But my belief was covering it, without flee Layer after layer, putting it on on my heart and my skin. So it became part of me... Now when mistake was exposed, I have to rewind all these years and believes back. I have to rip off this barbed from my flesh, Layer after layer,…
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Just a night talk

Strong alcohol taste. Yes, I am upset by feeling... Day after day, week after week, And even month after month. Funny how life turns. That is not about love, not anymore. But betrayal? Pain of betrayal - that's what I can't bear. That pain is too real. One day person is your everything, Person who you can trust your life to, And next day, this person is just an illusion - Mist, fading in a sunlight. All was a lie, all was in vain... It was my mistake to be weak, But YOU the one who stuck a knife in my back... And I just turned around and said nothing. I just cried, because pain was ripping me apart. I guess... I just didn't expect that. That hurts more than…
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Still hurts

💔 I didn’t feel that pain for a while, I even forgot how it hurts! Shifted again a covering tile, And now my heart stupidly burns… I’ve been here and there… Tears make vision so blur. And my soul scared and bare, Has no protecting clothes, nor fur. Memories are like gems, And memories are like shrapnel. They are working like big lens, Making everything better or worse. This wound heals, But I am crippled forever. I am taking my pills, And trying to forget better… https://youtu.be/P9-4xHVc7uk
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*Knock-knock*

*Knock-knock* on a door. I already know who’s there. Can I take it anymore? Can I hide? But where? *Knock-knock* on my door. I know it won’t go away. Do I have to say “Hello”? Do I have to pay? *Knock-knock* so loud now. I know this is last warning. I need to open, need to bow, I need to take it every morning. I open door with a weak smile. My position is very clear. I will be on fire, My pain is again here...
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