Post of Motivation :)

I didn’t write for a while, but this is almost end of the year, and I decided to write a motivational post, as a part of “coping with depression campaign” :) When I was in a deep depression, I hated motivational posts, because it seemed to me that nothing like that will ever happen to me. Why bother to read about success of others? 😓 Yes, it happened with these people, but won’t happen to me, because my life seemed to be always dark and sh*tty. Seemed that I had problems with everything in my life and there was no hope to fix them. I couldn’t start to think about positive 😖. I was full of anger and jealousy, for my ex who left me for another girl, because I…
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We are not free

Funny how this world has set of rules… Look at us: adults with free will, And with all those modern tools We are not free… You know I miss you, I know you miss me. We want reconnection, We want just BE... But we can’t… she would be jealous, He wouldn’t understand. We are family, just fellas, But it seems too weird to them what I meant. Society does not approve. Trust is weak too. We are two adults, with free will, And yet, can’t even say “hi, how are you?”…
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Black Magic

Almost black, this blood, Out of my veins, Like a souse on my heart, Like a drizzle on the table. They say it is a witchcraft, They say it is a dark magic, But I don’t care, yes, I care not! Because their lips will be silenced forever... This life on the table, Still beating, don’t ask how, This heart is poisoned, But all poison can be a cure. Laugh while you can, My pain now becoming real, Now my pain has power, Now my pain will be released. Almost black, this blood, Out of my veins, Like a souse on my heart, Like a drizzle over your cold skin...
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Alice in “Wonderland”

Alice in Wonderland…. She is sitting on her bed, Her gaze full of sadness. This blue cover, this soft bed – It all was for their little “nest”, For him and for her, only. He left though and nest was empty. Since then how many men intruded this sanctuary? Sanctuary of broken love, of broken hopes? We all go a little mad sometimes… life does too. The cat laughs quietly in the corner.
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Taking away Manhood

Today I’ve heard on a radio, that nowadays it is a turn off for women when guy offers to pay for a dinner on a first date… I have to admit that it perturbed me a lot. Women teach men to be irresponsible by doing so. That is where we lead our society. But why? Is it a really good tendency to drop your kid in a kindergarten after a month, since child was born and go back to work? Yes, many women love their jobs (it is a big topic, for another post), but you can’t be a greatest mother and a successful careerist. You have to pick one. I am talking about people who wants a classic family and raise their children themselves and not put this duty…
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