Question #5: How to turn life back to happiness

Hello, my friends! I hope you were able to find your way through the depression, as I did. I hope that my writing could help you, at least a little bit. Now this is the time for a final article about fighting depression, which speaks about the final stage, when the pain or emptiness transfers into joy or happiness. This is the stage, where person gets healed as much, as possible. In previous article I listed things which can help to change focus and start enjoying your life again. Did it help? Do you feel better? Now the best thing to seek, the real cure - is love šŸ’˜. Love and feeling of security counters a lot of negativity and brighten up the hope. Of course, finding love is not…
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Question #4. How to fill the emptiness?

Now when the sharpest pain is no more presented (whatever helped you, time or pills), it is time to find a new purpose in life and how to make it meaningful again. For me that was a big problem, because whole my life, since I was a teenager, my purpose was to build a relationship, which should lead to a loving family. This didnā€™t work quite well and now I know why (I learned a lot about phycology behind women and relationships in general). Either way, my life was (is?) so empty and meaningless, that it was terrifying. When I was in pain, nothing was helping me, because every positive thing was reminding me that I cannot share it with Him, so it never will be like it used to…
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Question #3: What resources use for help?

There are many things that can help with depression: seeing a counselor, antidepressant pills, reading motivational books/blogs, hanging out with friends, new hobby. I would suggest to try them all, starting from the end of the list and see at what point you will feel better. As humans, we can heal, so if we will let ourselves - we will! After going through step 1 and 2 (previous posts in this topic), it is time to start changing something. We already decided that we want to live, and live a better life, and we (hopefully) found out why exactly we were miserable. Now time to try and heal the pain, because if you really want something, it will happened, especially if it is inside of our own heads. Personally, my…
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Ghost of memories

So sunny outside. I am enjoying the warmness. Remember this plaza? I am drinking coffeeā€¦ Aloneā€¦ I see a ghost of memories. I see me and you, but now you are somewhere else. You are alive and you are happy, I guess. You left me behind, as a reminder of the dreadful past. And now I am alone in this dark place. I hate you, because you escaped. I am happy for you, it is your turn to be happy. Isnā€™t it what love is about? I take one more sip and smile to the sun. Wounded, crippled, doomed, but I am alive. I hate to know that you knew it! You left because you knew I will surviveā€¦ But did you know at what price?    
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Pain can’t be killed

- Can I die? - young girlĀ asked quietly. She looked down on her thin arm. Through the pale skin she could see blue veins. Seemed that they were so close; seemed that if she would cut just aĀ littleĀ bit, she would reach them; and then all her pain and fears would float away, within warm, red river. Her gaze slid up. - Can I die? - she asked again, but this time louder, with eyes full of determination. Her interlocutor remained silence. Then he sighed. - Yes, silly girl, you can die... but there is more to life, than just pain and fears. However, life is full of pain and disappointments. You should know, that if you will run away from your pain, you might rest in peace, but everyone else…
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